Im back!

It is a new day and a new dawn. I have it all inside me, I can do this. I am going to get a hold of my life again. I am going to find the love from within again, the peace. What we tell ourselves becomes our reality. A fresh start.

I’m in a good place…

battles…

These past few months have been shady, I’ve lost myself and I’ve lost my recovery. Its felt very dark and out of control and my body is in a mess. But thing are going to change, starting from now. Its going to be hard and I am going to feel but if I keep getting upset about feeling ill and about how I’ve gone down hill its only going to get worse. I have to take everyday as it comes and when I feel ill and things don’t go to plan just accept it and realise these things have to happen in my recovery, it will do no good getting stressed about it and dwelling on the past. That is what I have always done and it is probably why I haven’t got better. If I stop this stress and anxiety I probably will get better. Slowly however, and I have to accept that, that it is going to be slow and for a long time I won’t be able to do much, I won’t instantly start feeling better because I’m in a better place , it takes time. But if I take every day as it happens, I will be giving myself a chance to really recover. The recovery isn’t hopeless just because i’m sicker now than i was 2 years ago, that doesn’t mean i should give up, it doesn’t mean i won’t get better, because have a really given myself a break from stress in that time? no? There’s still so much I can do, and it starts now. And if in a month,  2 months I look back at this in a bad place, don’t be disheartened because its not going to be straight forward and easy but you can get there. Just give yourself a break.

This is what will make us.

Friendship is a wonderful thing…

Don’t worry if things don’t go exactly right :) and The Amygdala Process

A strange day…

I’m coming off my sleeping tablets and as the first night without them I couldn’t sleep last night, causing me to sleep all morning, woke up late (2:30pm). Plus then when I woke up I had an argument/awkward conversation with my boyfriend (pains me to call him my ex so soon) which put me in a bad place. And now  its 11pm and I’m not tired and I haven’t done the things I wanted to do.I think its very important to have structure in your day, its not good for your day to all roll into one in bed. Stretch, get some fresh air, do something you enjoy and try to keep your mind in a good place.

But its okay that things haven’t gone exactly right today. I’m going to still do my stretches after I’ve wrote this and do some meditation to calm my body and mind and then tomorrow it will be a new day Don’t stress about what hasn’t gone exactly right, just accept it  has happened, learn from it and focus on the present and what can be done now

Ashok Gupta’s Amygdala Process….

I was doing some research on Ashok Gupta’s ‘Amygdala Training’ this evening. He’s made a DVD program to to help CFS patients recover. It looked very interesting. You can watch the first 3 hours (not all at once cause you have to pace yourself naughty) on you tube to see what its like, which is what I’ve been doing tonight. I watched part 1 after reading abit about it and really looks like my kind of thing so I’m going to give it a try. Its £95 for the DVD programme which is pretty pricey (not compared to lightning technique etc though)  but  if after 6 months of trying it you don’t like it you can send it back. But anyway I shall let you all know if its any good or not. Its so hard knowing what you can trust out there. Anyway the link to the site is

• http://www.guptaprogramme.com/

• and the to start watching the dvd on you tube is:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_fXqok9sYt8

• and an interesting article: http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/news/article-3116268-can-this-man-cure-me.do

But yeah I’ll let you know what I think of it before you all fork out lots of money…I shall keep you updated

Night night everyone

xxxx

Stress is the body’s worst enemy…

So today I’ve been trying to get my self in an optimal healing place, been trying to still my mind from all of its worries and mind chatter. When your mind is relaxed and calm it has such an effect on your body. My body needs the best environment to get better in. I know it can get better and I have to let it do what it does best but my part of the bargain is to not give it stress, give it room to get better. The more stresses I put on it the harder it will be for it to mend itself. With a calm and happy environment where you are not pushing the body too far, your body will naturally get better and then with time as you get stronger little by little you can do more and more. Its amazing what the power of stress has on your body.

So I’ve been working on eliminating stresses in my life. This hasn’t proved to easy, this past week I’ve had to split up with my boyfriend as I just cannot take the pressures that relationships bring while I’m ill, and even more so the pressures of a long distance relationship. This has been so hard to do but I know it has to be done. I have to focus on me and the needs of my body. I can’t take on another person at this time, it has to be all about me.

I’m going to take every day as it comes now and not worry about anything else, its just about keeping my mind and my body calm and doing the things I know it needs day by day….

Daily I need to:

• still the mind through meditation and watch my thoughts as I go through the day, try to get my mind in a calm and happy place
• try to do one thing every day that will make me happy – sadness is draining
• try to take myself away from stressfull situations
• not do too little during the day and not too much – pace,
• relax my tense muscles through meditation (body scan) and breathing exercises
• stretch my muscles.
• eat well and take my vitamins and protein powder (to help build up strength in my muscles)

Now lets just try to put it into practice. One day at time, one day at a time…

Hello world!

Lets recover…

So I’ve got chronic fatigue and I’m trying to recover, its hard and its taking a long time, but I will get there and so can you. I’ve been sick for 2 and a half years now. My whole life was shattered, I had to quit uni, move back home with my parents and lose any kind of a social life. M y new existence consisted of resting every day and thinking what I could do to get better. But as times gone on I’m understanding the illness more and what needs to be done to get better and I’m learning how to cope, how to start enjoying my life now, while I’m sick.

But things get hard and it is one hell of a struggle. I am going to share with you my journey, my thoughts, and let you know the things that work for me. I hope in doing this I will help some other chronic fatigue sufferers by feeling less alone in their own journey…

WE CAN DO IT! WE CAN GET OUR LIVES BACK….JUST BELIEVE IT